All things considered,

life is good. A little overwhelming, but good.

Thanksgiving Day was spent at home with my family, and my grandfather came to visit from Mexico. We did the traditional turkey thing, then they all started playing Loteria and I left to Moon Beans for a cup of coffee in the middle of nice, cool afternoon. My uncle Hector came to visit from Chicago that weekend, too, and we went to his place for bbq and cabrito, but I wasn't able to stay late. Everyone was drinking, and that's fine, no one gets backwards enough to cause a scene, but after a while I just wasn't comfortable anymore. I could see the disappointment in my uncle's face when I left around 10, but I had to leave. Being sober is, well, sobering. I can see now the effects alcohol has on peoples characters, and although when they first start drinking I'm perfectly able to carry on with them, after a while I'm just not close enough to their sate to find the night as fun as they do. On top of that, this Thanksgiving was the first holiday I spent with my entire family, without my dad and not drinking...it was just easier to remove myself from the situation, I suppose.

Let's see, what else is new...I don't really like my job at the building supplies store, but I am grateful to be employed. I don't think it's beneath me, no honest job is beneath any honest man and all work is honorable, but I just don't feel like I'm utilizing my mind to its fullest potential. It feels great when I help a customer make an informed decision on a product that affects such an intimate part of their life as their home or small business, but at the end of the day I'm not happy with what I do the majority of the time: organizing the stock room and replenishing the electrical section. Fortunately I have an interview on the 29th with an awesome communications company, which would really help me personally as an app developer...I can't wait! If you stumble upon this silly blog and read this far, please send out a prayer for me (what you call your God is not an issue for me, as I believe there is only one, no matter what we name it).

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My California love, I just got done chatting with you about a half hour ago, and damn do I miss you. I don't tell you because if I did I would say it every time we communicate, and I don't want to be overbearing. I was getting along relatively well in my loneliness before we began talking to each other again, but as soon as we did you sparked an uncontrollable affection. You always have. You're beautiful, and I need you. Don't ask me why. I just do.